Writing in Faith

I never expected to be a writer. I dreamed of it maybe Thought about it when I was a child but never really thought that it would happen. As an adult my energies took me into the non-profit world and I did not write very much. At one point, I told a friend that I didn’t have any stories. Eventually, I was called to seminary and to write.

Somehow, now, I find myself in the odd position of stepping into the unknown. The practical side of me says that there is no way that I can make it as a writer. I apply for full time jobs in non-profits, but each time I do, my soul feels pain. Am I lazy? I ask or am I denying a call. Am I lost soul, or just missing the door that is open?

The other morning I felt particularly frustrated. I am facing a great unknown as I leave Omega for the winter and there is anxiety. I want so much to control the future but it refuses to be controlled. I am realizing why I took a class in Yin Yoga late in the season at Omega. I need to learn to trust. To let go. To let God.

I said to God, “Look, if you want me to write , let me know. Otherwise, let me get on about it.” God, being God, was big enough to take all of this in.

That day I got a rejection notice from McDowell Colony. I also got a call from a temporary job. I found a position available at a retreat center. (My vision is to own and manage a small retreat center with a working farm). Yesterday, I found out that Saving Erasmus was named as “One of the Best Books of 2007” by Publishers Weekly.

Did God respond? I’m not so certain whether God answered any more than usual. I was just more open to listen.

The Trailers are Here, The Trailers are Here

Greeted with even more fanfare than the phone books in the movie, The Jerk, the trailers for Saving Erasmus have finally arrived. They can be viewed at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbnE5l_61mY.